2012 has been a rough year, to say the least.
Though I’ve alluded to most of those difficulties on the blog, you have no idea how hard it has been for me to not divulge more – much more. As one who feels restoration through being open and creating an environment where others feel the liberty to be “real” too, it has been hard to not let most of the world know (in person or through writing) just how incredibly challenging (and refining) 2012 has been for me.
We all have times like the ones I experienced the past several months, those I-am-just-going-to-have-to-grit-my-teeth-and-bear-it-even-though-I’d-rather-die-right-now times. I had about 3 of those seasons this year, with a small reprieve in the Spring-early Summer. Let’s just say this year hasn’t been fun. I’d say it’s been even hard than 2005, which if you recall, is the year I underwent a double lung transplant. Yes, I’m being for real. This girl doesn’t play. 😉 If you knew everything that has gone on, I think you’d agree with my seemingly outrageous statement.
Through it all, though, I’ve continued to be reminded that God is still sovereign and good. He is still enough.
Though life has not gone my way this past year and has been filled with unpleasant surprises, God was never surprised. In His sovereignty, He has allowed what the enemy meant for evil for my good and His glory – in more ways than one. Though I still wait for direction and movement in many areas of my life, I trust in Him to see me through, like He always has. I say ‘thank you’ and lift my hands in thanksgiving to Him, the Giver and Sustainer of all things.